Once you can be honest with yourself and admit that you are now disabled you allow yourself to transform and improve. This transformation takes courage, which I think you will find comes easier once you face the fact you are now disabled. Please remember one thing just because you accept and transform does not make you less of a person. It takes strength for transformation to happen, just look at the transformation a caterpillar makes into a beautiful butterfly. It takes a lot of strength for the butterfly to break out of the cocoon and fly, but they know transforming is a good thing.